I Am Dying.

The One I Love Is Not giving me chance to explain the situation I Am In. Seriously, You can Just ask HER and directly You Will Know What exactly is Going On. Instead, U go the easy way just to close your ear and leave me hanging here. I Dont know what else to say. I Honestly Love You. Give me a Chance To explain And You Will Know All Of this Is Just a Silly Misunderstanding. Go And Ask Her DIRECTLY If You Dont Believe Me. I Am Honest With You. I want you to be mine. You Should Think This Over And Act maturely.

Happy New Year

Hey Everyone!!!

This Is My first Post For thiS Year. I do Hope I have the guts to write more in the future. At Last. My worst year are over. Im glad I Am still AliVe And Kicking Like I usually Do. I Have A new Will To Live, A whole New Stories Yet to be MAKE, And Supposedly Good Things To be Taken Notice of. I am glad I Made It this far. I truly am grateful. When your life statistic suddenly Go down to the sewers, most time it would be difficult to handle especially when You Know YOU CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE On the Event, But you cant because of your sanity controls your desire over time. If I just let Loose EVERYTHING INSIDE ME, I am afraid that I am Going to burst Out In Flames Of Anger And EVERYTHING WOULD turn black and cloudy before I realized Something Happened And I Hurt ME SELF. So, I Am taking a different approach in Life Slightly different from what I had done before.

I Am Sorry. I changes Through times. Maybe I was different yesterday, And today I Am COMPLETELY Not the me from yesterday. I am consistently changing. But my feelings always the same. Just My attitude. Sometime I dunno Myself. I am A Phial Of LIQUID. I changes accordingly to the case I Am In. But one thing for sure, I Am SOLID AND AS HARD AS A DIAMOND WHEN IT COME To Loving You. I'm In too deep With you. And I Love every phase, every drop, every single uttered words are rainbow to me. I want this feeling TO LAST. I Want to wake up everyday Knowing I Have Someone That I Truly Care And LOVE.

I want you to be part of me. ^_^. Let us walk this path created for us together. I wont be in front of you. I want you to hold my hand and walk with me. I Hope This year is a GOOD YEAR FOR Me. Treat ME Nicely and I would be Grateful enough. I am letting go of my past mistakes and trying to attend a completely new set of Rules Determined For me.

And A HARD, Short FACT. I LOVE MY BELLA. I Hope She knows that much. ^_^

Romance In The Rain

Different? I Don't Think SO!

Sometime We will hear things like, Why exactly did I DO THAT? Nothing, I just want to be different. Yeah, dumbo. Keep bullshitting. Different? Go and live on another planet and be a different being than Just being Human. Then definitely i'd say, Woaah, back out, alien. Freak!

Haha. Pagi ni, tida sa sangka hujan turun. Kambing semua berlari masuk ke dalam rumah masing-masing dengan selimut dan baju hujan.

Happy juga la sa. Byk yg sia ingat masa hujan2 ni. HoHo. (evil grin) Biar sa seja tau. xD

Not The Usual Stuff

Yeah Dawg! Say Them And Leave! Welcome OCTOBER!!!

Haha. Are You a beer? Yes, indeed i am.

LoL. Hari ini hari sabtu dan sa bangun pada jam 10 pagi. Awal kan? Bangun2 makan oat. Oat dan Oat. Lama2 muka jadi Oat La ni. T_T...Hihi

Lama suda sa tida post di blog sa ne. And without even realizing it, hey, bulan 10 suda!! maksudnya, ada 1 bulan g kuliah, ada 1 minggu cuti nanti 21 hb, so tambah tulak, ada 4 weeks lagi saya akan berada di dalam IP yang saya sangat-sangat cintai ini (kununlah) Exam pun dakat uda. Jadi pelan-pelan saya belajar* (main Game). Mcam slalu urang cakap, last minit bru la start study. Baru pandai masuk tu pelajaran menurut mereka.

Haha. Actually sia mw meluah pendapatan sia bha ne. Awal-awal bulan 10 ni, ngam ni mw buat lagu. Wake me up when september ends. Well, end suda pun. Jadi bangunlah nak. Bangun dari mimpi-mimpi indah anda. Indah macamana pun, tatap juga mimpi tu. So, keep it real and move on. Awal-awal bulan ni sia mau motivasikan diri sendiri. Tapi pasal apa juga aa?? Sia buat dulu bru sia reflect anyway. Tapi sejak kebelakangan ini, sia sangat-sangat banyak berfikir. And I hate it when i started to do so. Bila pemikiran sia terbang melayang jauh suda 2, mula la sakit hati, memanas tida tentu pasal. Rasa diri ni bodoh la, Lack Of Self Confidence butul o.

Padahal ada masa-masa yang sia fikir positip saja. Mungkin tahun 2011 ni memang tahun malang sia o. I've experienced Tons of misfortune. Tida payah la sia cerita, cuz sia 1 urang ja yang tau. xD. Another 2 months and this miserable year will pass. Overall statistik sia ni tahun? Graph merundum jatuh jahanam masuk dalam parit.

Nasib sia pungut juga elemen2 yang tida sempat masuk parit. Pastu guna 2 elemen-elemen tu la sia idup. Biar sikit, yang penting ada urang bilang. Urang bilang aa, bukan gobuk. Biar pun hidup tidak sinang, biar sa terpaksa merangkak mau cari makan, sia tau juga yang sia akan survive. Tahan saja. Tahan lagi. Dan Tahan lagi.

I Will Survive.

Meow. I Will Survive. I Survived before and I will Again. I don't want to care for anything that will hurt me. Enough is enough. I'm running my time backward, back to the point Where I lived Happily.

I don't Care. I Will Do things I Haven't done before. I am going to live my life to the fullest!

Berapa kali sudah sa sakit pasal orang lain, Sikarang masa untuk sa fikir pasal sa punya diri. I don't wan't to be the one yang tau semua tapi diri sendiri kesakitan. I am happy outside, tapi sa simpan banyak benda. Bangun lah. Cukup lah tu. Apa-apa pun datang, Tsunami ka apa ka sa diam saja ne. Enough with the bullshits. Realize when you are not doing very good in life is something so painful that it even want to make you cry. Apa-apa pun...Selepas saja siap semua kerja-kerja yang diamanahkan, i will focus more on doing things that i love. Making songs, writing and drawing. Mungkin I will post some here. Jadi, sepa-sepa yang untung enough to see me bullshitting will be congragulated first. Sa remove sudah post-post yang saya rasa tidak berkaitan dengan orang lain. I want to make this blog view-able for everybody. Cheers.

Haha. Something feels funny. I would love to sit alone on a bench, where all the people are passing by not noticing me. I want to observe. Observe what I am missing from my life and what can I really do to get them on the track. I'd Love to see the reaction of the people when something horrible happen to them, and also their happy faces when the life wheel is spinning perfectly on sync.

L.O.V.E.

Hehe... I want to tell this directly to the owner of my heart...
-I want you to know I LOVE YOU the way You are, one way or the other!
-I WILL always Be By Your Side
-I Am true to you as LONG as You are true to me
-I Will accept anything from you
-Keep In Mind I am not keeping any secrets as long as you do the same
-I AM NoT Keeping you as A pet
Yeah...
I don't know when I actually Am serious for love. It Hurts when you love someone and you know that your love is one sided or blocked. You Know the love is there, just waiting to be explored and examined thoroughly With A smiel. P/S: Ada Jodoh, Runtuh Gunung Pun Xkan lali punya.

Kuda.