Romance In The Rain

Different? I Don't Think SO!

Sometime We will hear things like, Why exactly did I DO THAT? Nothing, I just want to be different. Yeah, dumbo. Keep bullshitting. Different? Go and live on another planet and be a different being than Just being Human. Then definitely i'd say, Woaah, back out, alien. Freak!

Haha. Pagi ni, tida sa sangka hujan turun. Kambing semua berlari masuk ke dalam rumah masing-masing dengan selimut dan baju hujan.

Happy juga la sa. Byk yg sia ingat masa hujan2 ni. HoHo. (evil grin) Biar sa seja tau. xD

Not The Usual Stuff

Yeah Dawg! Say Them And Leave! Welcome OCTOBER!!!

Haha. Are You a beer? Yes, indeed i am.

LoL. Hari ini hari sabtu dan sa bangun pada jam 10 pagi. Awal kan? Bangun2 makan oat. Oat dan Oat. Lama2 muka jadi Oat La ni. T_T...Hihi

Lama suda sa tida post di blog sa ne. And without even realizing it, hey, bulan 10 suda!! maksudnya, ada 1 bulan g kuliah, ada 1 minggu cuti nanti 21 hb, so tambah tulak, ada 4 weeks lagi saya akan berada di dalam IP yang saya sangat-sangat cintai ini (kununlah) Exam pun dakat uda. Jadi pelan-pelan saya belajar* (main Game). Mcam slalu urang cakap, last minit bru la start study. Baru pandai masuk tu pelajaran menurut mereka.

Haha. Actually sia mw meluah pendapatan sia bha ne. Awal-awal bulan 10 ni, ngam ni mw buat lagu. Wake me up when september ends. Well, end suda pun. Jadi bangunlah nak. Bangun dari mimpi-mimpi indah anda. Indah macamana pun, tatap juga mimpi tu. So, keep it real and move on. Awal-awal bulan ni sia mau motivasikan diri sendiri. Tapi pasal apa juga aa?? Sia buat dulu bru sia reflect anyway. Tapi sejak kebelakangan ini, sia sangat-sangat banyak berfikir. And I hate it when i started to do so. Bila pemikiran sia terbang melayang jauh suda 2, mula la sakit hati, memanas tida tentu pasal. Rasa diri ni bodoh la, Lack Of Self Confidence butul o.

Padahal ada masa-masa yang sia fikir positip saja. Mungkin tahun 2011 ni memang tahun malang sia o. I've experienced Tons of misfortune. Tida payah la sia cerita, cuz sia 1 urang ja yang tau. xD. Another 2 months and this miserable year will pass. Overall statistik sia ni tahun? Graph merundum jatuh jahanam masuk dalam parit.

Nasib sia pungut juga elemen2 yang tida sempat masuk parit. Pastu guna 2 elemen-elemen tu la sia idup. Biar sikit, yang penting ada urang bilang. Urang bilang aa, bukan gobuk. Biar pun hidup tidak sinang, biar sa terpaksa merangkak mau cari makan, sia tau juga yang sia akan survive. Tahan saja. Tahan lagi. Dan Tahan lagi.

I Will Survive.

Meow. I Will Survive. I Survived before and I will Again. I don't want to care for anything that will hurt me. Enough is enough. I'm running my time backward, back to the point Where I lived Happily.

I don't Care. I Will Do things I Haven't done before. I am going to live my life to the fullest!

Berapa kali sudah sa sakit pasal orang lain, Sikarang masa untuk sa fikir pasal sa punya diri. I don't wan't to be the one yang tau semua tapi diri sendiri kesakitan. I am happy outside, tapi sa simpan banyak benda. Bangun lah. Cukup lah tu. Apa-apa pun datang, Tsunami ka apa ka sa diam saja ne. Enough with the bullshits. Realize when you are not doing very good in life is something so painful that it even want to make you cry. Apa-apa pun...Selepas saja siap semua kerja-kerja yang diamanahkan, i will focus more on doing things that i love. Making songs, writing and drawing. Mungkin I will post some here. Jadi, sepa-sepa yang untung enough to see me bullshitting will be congragulated first. Sa remove sudah post-post yang saya rasa tidak berkaitan dengan orang lain. I want to make this blog view-able for everybody. Cheers.

Haha. Something feels funny. I would love to sit alone on a bench, where all the people are passing by not noticing me. I want to observe. Observe what I am missing from my life and what can I really do to get them on the track. I'd Love to see the reaction of the people when something horrible happen to them, and also their happy faces when the life wheel is spinning perfectly on sync.

L.O.V.E.

Hehe... I want to tell this directly to the owner of my heart...
-I want you to know I LOVE YOU the way You are, one way or the other!
-I WILL always Be By Your Side
-I Am true to you as LONG as You are true to me
-I Will accept anything from you
-Keep In Mind I am not keeping any secrets as long as you do the same
-I AM NoT Keeping you as A pet
Yeah...
I don't know when I actually Am serious for love. It Hurts when you love someone and you know that your love is one sided or blocked. You Know the love is there, just waiting to be explored and examined thoroughly With A smiel. P/S: Ada Jodoh, Runtuh Gunung Pun Xkan lali punya.

Kuda.

I'm Doing Okay. I Guess.

This is what exactly I am Feeling right Now. Confused, Lonely, Happy and totally off my rhythm. It's fasting month. My budget ran off pretty much everywhere, I don't have a girlfriend (is this even related) and assignments are working their asses to get to my nerves. Working double time to get my life straight ( it's not like I am Gay or something like that) it just that my life gone offtrack too far. I'm not impressed, not at all. Hell, I have about 100 pages of assignments up my ass and I've done only about what, 20-30 pages of them? Congratulation champ! You are a real messed up sucker and now feel my WRATH!!! (Whatever..duhh)
I don't know if i am the only one that feel it this way, but things around change too freaking fast that even my blink would not catch up to them. Works piled up weeks after weeks, problems keep finding they ways to cling to me, and I don't even have someone to spend my credits. Yeah, Just great. Luckily I still have my smile. :)

All new...And Hopeless...LoL

Hoho....im dead! Seriously, what did i do with my money? Bought things, (some are useful). Damn. how can I live for the next 4 months? My budget totally ruined. Got side income, but i'm not sure wether im for real or what. Help!!! I seriously need some money. -oYo-

Stories yet To Complete

I've spent all my life to search for something. Along the way, stories were made and some did not even manage to get out of the box. I should write a book. I want my stories to be told and kept in my memories as we travel through the path of life, at a time we will forget. Those precious memories? What a waste. I love to think. Sometime my thoughts brought me so far that I can extract the stories inside and said, this would make a good movie. Moments later, I would start forgetting and the thoughts came afterward is nothing but rubbish. I should start to write. Write of any thoughts that came across my mind. That way, the idea never stop and i can always revise them anytime i want. Along the writing should be a set of drawings. If i start to do these things by now, I do believe that in 3 years, I would have countless scripts and ideas. Those ideas will bring forth my next step to write a book. Never mind that, I'll keep in mind of what can I do to please my desire in a way that are beneficial to me, and the people around me. Yeah, I should do that. Totally. Probably. ^_^

EXAM

EXAM. Tomorrow. Tomorrow you will have your first paper. Be real. Dont play-play. You have Exam TOMORROW. GO study. Leave all your fb or whatever and go study. i am serious. Hell yeah!

Anyway, actually i've never touch a book since the study week started and here i am dealing with the consequences. Damn it. Owh well, whatever came into my mind tomorrow will be my answer to every damn question. Hell YEAH! Come At Me BABY!!!

Owh Well...

Owh well, this is it. i wish that i could be excused for the rest of my life. i want to go someplace that i have been dreaming of...what? damn...SucH A Lame excuse for me to avoid life...HA-HA...face it. U will never escape life. Smile and face it with your might, and i would be happy to help you along the way. it's not that i can help you with anything, but if you ned someone to talk to, well, ill be there for you if i could. Guys, (or girls) whatever that mean, i've faced the hardest moments in life that some of you would not even have the chance to experience them. All that blood, tears, pain and anger made me who i am today. Some of you may not believe it, but trust me, you can see every drop of it dripping wet out of me.

A fact, life is not a freaking movie. Face it. Don't whine on every problem you have, face them. Find someone that (this is important) you can TRUST to talk. GOOD TALK will result in good result or whatever, but it can calm you down. xD!

I'll Live By This

Routine these days....4am. sleep
12.30 wake up.
1.30 lunch or anything like it
Lappy on, DoTA for 12 hours...
And Sleep. Tomorrow. Repeat steps.

Aaaa...my first post since..What? 2009. WTF

OK. i dont have any followers and i don't even know how can follow a blog. Call me a newbie. i'm havin a sausage now, and thinking about playing DoTA. Should i? damn hell i should. xD